Judas - Why Me?

Rabbi I... I didn't know. They- He fooled me! How can I be so dumb and do this? Jesus knew about

this... But why didn't he tell us it was me? Was he trying to protect me? No no no, I doubt it. Why did

this happen to me? I was just trying to help, but no, not the opposing team. Aw man, Jesus is going to

see me as a backstabber. No! I didn't want it to be like this. I just- Why couldn't- Ugh! I just wanted

to help! Why couldn't I just keep my mouth shut? I was just trying to prove a point! Why, why does

this happen to me? Wait- He's looking over here... He's probably judging and doesn't want to see me.

Oh my gosh! I feel so guilty. I was just- How does he- Why can't I just trade the thirty pieces of silver

back  for Jesus? I was trying to show that he is almighty and powerful. It wasn't supposed to end this

way... They fooled me! I fooled myself... No they fooled me... No- Ugh!

Right From Wrong

I can’t… I just can’t. How can I?  Why would I ask for forgiveness? He was the one… He took my

money. I shouldn't apologize... Not me. Why can’t he be the one? Does it ALWAYS have to be me!?

He’s the one, but I should just apologize… I mean I've done it before so… That’s exactly why I

shouldn't apologize. I’m always the bigger man so I shouldn't apologize… But what will people

think of me?... How will that person treat me from now on? I want people to like me. No, I don’t

care… It’s just that I always... God tells me to love my neighbor though! Ugh this is so frustrating!

Why can’t life just be so simple? I want to go to heaven, but this kid keeps… I have to apologize. If I

deny him, God will deny me.  But it’s just not fair! I should get him back for hitting me. I should rip

his homework, or I should embarrass him somehow… Maybe I will just humiliate him, plain and

simple. Oh! Maybe I should- no stop! Put it together man. I want to go to heaven… I must obey and

apologize. Should I apologize or should I not?  To be or not to be? Haha… That was funny. Stop...

This is serious. Focus. God comes first. So does being just! Ugh!  What do I do?

My Moment of Truth

Huh…? Um… Hmm. Why, do I feel a powerful force upon me? Could it be-- no. It can’t be. 

Wait! Yes it can be. Hmm..? Could it be that You have chosen me… Abba? No no, I’m just 

being silly. Oh my, my hands are trembling.. Could it be that Yahweh is trying to speak to

me? Why are all these people staring at me- do I have something on my face? What if

people think I’m a false prophet-- well I don’t care… Yes I do… No I don’t. Ugh! This is

frustrating. Could it be partially true? Aha! I think I’m starting to understand. I could be the

Chosen One. Right..? Am I the one people talk about in the scriptures?… The coming of

Yahweh’s son is me. Yes! This could be possible. With Him anything is possible. I am here

to save my brothers and sisters-- hope I don’t sound too pompous about myself… Yet I am

still confused on why me… Ah! Yes… He must be pleased with me. Maybe it’s because i’m

humble..? My mission here is to be a suffering servant who would save his people-- seems

a bit harsh on me. Will You help me in this journey-- Will You give me the strength to fulfill

my mission? Yes! I knew it-- or at least now I do… I am Your Son, Your beloved son. This

isn't going to be easy-- well, maybe it will be...