Do I Really Deserve This?

Do I deserve this?... Have I really done something so wrong to deserve this?! Why won’t

 

anyone help me? OMG this hurts so much!... All these people are watching, but no one is

 

helping… After all the things i have done for their people... Not even my disciples will help

 

me!... Father, why are you doing this to me?.. You have the power to stop this but why wont

 

you?! Maybe I am not the son of God… Maybe I am just a regular man. No, I am the son of

 

God! Look at all the things I have done in my life… I am have to be the son of God, I am not

 

mortal… Maybe this is a sign, for all the people watching, maybe its a sign for me. I don't 

 

 know… Why God?... Why?

What Should I Do ?!

​What am I going to do? I just won the lottery for one million dollars! I want it all for myself,

but there are so many people in the world who need it more than me. I could buy everything I ever

wanted.... The nicest cars! The best designer clothes! All the sneakers I ever wanted! Why would I

give some of this money away? I need this for myself and my family. I never have to work again! My

mother who worked so hard for me to make it this far will never have to work again! I don't think I

could just give some money away. What would someone else do?... There are so many millionaires in

the world and they don’t give a dime back to the people who really need it. But, shouldn’t I be

different? Shouldn’t I set a good example for the rest of the world?... But I don’t know… I want

everything  for myself! What would my dead Grandmother say? She would go crazy if she knew I

was being this selfish. I have to change… I’ll do it for her. I should start a charity, for all children

who are missing adults in their life. I will still have enough money for all the luxuries I want in my

life, or will I?

I Am God's Son!

This voice, It is inhuman... Sort of divine... What does this mean?! Wait, am I the son of the voice

above?!... I am him!  I am the man from the prophecies!... I am God's son?... Wow, the dove, and I

now know for sure, the Holy Spirit is with me, sent by my Father!... I am God's son, Jesus. But 

why me?... Out of all the honorable people in the world, why me?! I'm just a carpenter , nothing more

nothing less. But I guess I'm more now... But am I ready?... Do I have the ability to do the tasks my

father will command me to do? Am I capable of taking care of his people?... I am destined to be a

suffering servant of the Lord!... Should I  be happy? I am going to be a hero! But is it worth it?...